Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Scales May Lie,But Tape Measures Never Do

Tonight has been a night of tears and asking "why did i do this to myself?" I faced a harsh realty tonight when I stepped on the scale. Yep, you guessed it. Another gain. This makes a grand total of 4 pounds in 2 weeks.

After taking to Facebook to bemoan yet another gain, someone asked me if I had measured inches. I grabbed my trusty tape measure, confident that the scale was just stupid and I had indeed lost some inches.

This is where reality slappend me in the face. Hard.

My waist is 43 inches. The healthy range is 22 to 23 inches.

I even googled how to measure your waist because I was sure I was wrong.

I measured 4 times.

It was still 43 inches.

I then decided that I needed to know what my body fat percentage was.

I wish I hadn't done that.

It is 47.2%.

I stared at that number for a few minutes as tears filled my eyes. I tried a few other websites, convinced each one was wrong.

The results where all the same.

That is where the questioning came in. How could I be so blind as to not pay attention to what I was doing to my body? How could I let myself get to this point?

I will admit, I haven't been as strict this week with going to the gym...thank you ankle. And I probably should be more mindful of what I am putting in my body. I caught myself mindlessly eating through out the last week.

This isn't acceptable. I deserve better. I want better.

No more excuses. No more "i can't"s.

It changes NOW.


  1. Melissa, I could have written this a couple of months ago. I'm finally losing the weight again. (Slow,steady progress) Don't beat yourself up, just start over. It's so difficult. We let life and everyone else come before us, but we have to do this for ourselves. Yes, we do deserve better.

  2. Thank you. I am trying to refocus this morning and not beat myself up to much over this setback